a positive one

I cant ever understand why School is such a hardship. More so how to get to where you want to go.
I am talking about how difficult it is just to get anywhere in the School world.

So I used to go to this college and I am suppose to graduate with a bachelor degree this May. On my birthday no less. But I stopped trying last year. Plus I was not sure that I wanted to continue studying psychology. What with all the difficulty I was having with the professors and my shyness to ask questions and all, I was not really excited about school anymore.

Then I move to New York and I have this goal to go back in a year, all gravy, just pick up where you left off. NO.

Not that easy. I have this one class I need to take over and instead of just starting off where I left off, I need to reapply and then pay out of state Tuition!!! That's $6000 more than instate! all for one class too!

But with some crazy whim I had the courage to keep on it and pass through my shyness and I got it all figured out. Take a Class here and then transfer that credit over and complete my associates degree! woohoo!!!

So I am pondering on what I should take. I wish I knew what I want to do in my life. How hard is that really?

♥

5 years maybe?

Its creeping up to "Wedding Season" as I call it. Spring and Summer. No I'm not engaged but I'm gett'n the fever. It just clicked. So I have been looking up dresses and all day at work I have been thinking about where to have it at. The Wedding I mean.


First and Top choice is Our Yard. It's perfect because there is a runway of field encased by tall trees to block the wind. and it's as if it was created to house rows of white seats and still have enough room for an isle♥

Second choice is Beardslee Castle in Mohawk. We went there when my Sister came to visit me. I was told it was a haunted place where you can eat in the dungeon and such.




Well people also Hold Weddings there. Right now, it's not an attractive structure but when the greenage comes out, from the pictures I've seen, it's amazing!!!

And then there is this State Called Maine that Beau Raves about but I have never been too. Or Maybe Cooperstown. But I'm not sure how I fit into the Family Structure enough to consider Cooperstown. I'm not sure about those two.


And now the wedding dress.
ok ok I've been thinking now more and more because Beau's Aunt is getting married and I'm truly happy for her ♥. Well now I'm getting excited Even though That isn't an option at the moment. I guess the real reason I'm getting excited is that I want to go to school in Ithaca for Massage Therapy. Well i'd have to move there for the 7 months of the program and I was worried that Beau would get worried, for the obvious. His girlfriend lives two hours away.

Well. If I was his Wife, it would be a much different Story. And he likes that idea. So That was all the fuel I needed for my fire !

Dresses I like so Far:
Dress by Michelle Roth
Dress by Claire-Pettibone
Dress by Pnina Tornai





Pricing shouldn't be an issue since I have about 5 years to plan this. That's enough time right?
Plus it will give me enough time to plan. All my family and all of his. And maybe really close Friends. I have an Idea for a photographer. I'd say my Dad, but he has an Important Job, I hope she says yes.

That's the Jist and I had to Blog it.
♪

Spring!!!

As of March 20th, 2010, Spring has officially begun and this is my first Spring in Central New York. ♥ I can honestly say that I am very excited to see what it looks like.

Yet as I write this blog, I try to look up pictures to add caption to what I;m talking about. However, I am very shocked to not be able to find any pictures! ALAS!!
well I will make that my mission then this Spring.

[On a different Note]
My snake, APIMPNAMEDSLICKBACK A.K.A. Mr Snakers or Tessla, has a cold and is not eating. I cannot get her to eat. Then I cannot tell if she is shedding or not because her eyes say she is but she is "shedding" for the past multiple months. Her eyes are not the right color and they look like they have scales over them. ugh. I need to Snake Vet!!!









But back to my Spring Note, I am very Excited! I hope CNY Spring is as good as a Clarksville Spring. I have had about 12 Clarksville Springs, and We have an event called Rivers and Spires which happens in April.




I always enjoyed driving down Madison Street and seeing all the trees a blooming and the many colors that were surfacing from the brown Tennessee winters leave behind.



This is a photo of a campus Building of Austin Peay State University.


Anyways I have a new mission.
♪ Photography op ♫

It's Actually a Carlton. Le sigh

In response to my own blog post, My bike is actually a guy bike. Why it has the word "Catalina" on it is beyond me. But I came across this info while my BF's father was helping me put air in the tire. He pointed out to me that Girl Bikes have the top bar slant just a bit so we could just throw our legs through the bars, instead of over like one would do with a Horse.








Also it works better if you decide to be cute and ride with a skirt.
So I have a boy bike which I am slightly too short for!!!
However, I love it none the less and in Kirke's Junk Shop, as I call it, We found this metal thing that goes over the back wheel and becomes another spot to carry things on. I already have a front basket on it.
♥ So cute ♥

It's Still a Raging bitch to get up that hill. poor 3 speed. My goal is to be able to get up that hill and all the way up to Brown Road. then there is the challenge of going down new port. such a lon long slant of a road. It's only 9.9 miles!!! I can do that!!!

Catalina

Bing has been my thing as of Late. Very Helpful. But I still love you Google. Not going to say let me "Bing" That. it'll always be "Google" that. [you even get Capitalization according to my firefox spell check]
Anyways.

So I recently just bought a new bicycle ♥ and it is a Huffy, model Catalina. Alas, I can not find any info on Catalina, all by itself. But I think it's suppose to be a girl version of the Carlton.










Here is my goal with this bike.

I want to Bike to work [The Balkan] from where I live. It's about a 9.9 mi bike Ride. I'm hoping with this training, I will be ready for the Boilermaker Race.

It's a marathon but all that running for training makes my knees sad. So I figured biking that much with 114 days left my fat heart will be up for the Challenge.9.3 mile race :) It's a huge deal up here. I did not participate Last year but this year I want to :)
So I am really hopeful that I get motivated enough to train, this bike is suppose to help.

Afghanistan. Figuratively.

So As of Late I have been trying to exercise more. And I think I have been successful, in the idea. Plus, I found [with the help of my co workers] a bike shop. This adorable man might be the answer I'm looking for.
If this bike is fixable, I will be able to [here goes my theories again] bike from Graham Road all the way to Genesee Street. Now. All I need to find is the bike routes.

And Afghanistan how?

Well. whathadhappenwas. So Beau and I had a tiff and all was ok right, I lost my phone in the snow and Schuyler has snow man. let me tell you. But the snow has melted and I haven't found my phone yet. Well. I found it. Parts of it. In the House. Under the Heater. So I am at a Dilemma. How should I confront him?

Normally I fight. I hit. I yell. I get crazy. But I do Not want to be that kind of person anymore. You could say I want to Ask God For The Answers. But normally I have amazing gut feelings. And I knew he Broke it. I knew it.

It is my link to the world. To my family. And I hurt because I am taking this pretty hard.

It's just a phone you puss. No. No it's not about the phone. That was an item of mine and he destroyed it. He destroyed me in a small sense. Oh you are just to attached to material things. well Sir. I feel we are at a draw then, because you have a different view about this than I do. I have gone through two phones with you, which you have broken. Broken sir by means of obliteration. Anger management might be in your future if you want this to work.

Am I just being silly?

oh Jesus. help.

For such a SunShining Day, My Sun went away Early.

Nothing Compares to You

Of course I will always say that this quote is about Beau, but Music was on my mind when I wrote that.
For the past week, my little sister came and visited me and I haven't been this thrilled about family visits ever. Call it lame, but I won't lie. It's kinda lonely here. Only 'cuz I don't have my family here or my friends.
I feel I'm losing relationships while being here.
This is my new chapter though, and I'm not being a lil bitch I promise with the venting, just saying. Does not change the void that is kind of forming.
Sure, Beau is here for me. Despite who I am, he is my rock and is oddly understanding. Once I am a functioning human.
I just am angry and I am sending this thought for a blog angry bolts. There Take That!!!

Drowning it all out with some good dosage of GirlTalk. mmmm


and sadly. my snake has a chest cold.
GET WELL APIMPNAMEDSLICKBACK!!!!