I'm free

Everything happens for a reason and even though that reason seems to be a miss, I strive to figure it out.
For a year, I have been wondering what the hell that reason was. I might have figured it out, I could be wrong. But I know for a fact that I am not wrong. Try to tear me down all you want, you no longer have that power over me. Reason? Never, ever, ever let a man, in this instants a boy, abuse me again. Never let him tell me I can't be independent because in doing so you are not fully committed. Never allow a man tell me I might fail, in anything. Never allow that same man try and tell me that I am f*cking with his head because I no longer love him and that I can't be with him anymore. And figuritively drag me back and by using my fears against me.
In this very fast year, I have grown so much, despite the fact that the same man tells me that I am immature because I can't work this "bump" out. Last time I checked, alcoholism isn't a tiny "bump". It is a very serious illness and I have asked that same man, whom I crazily still care for, to go to AA meetings, and he didn't want to. He didn't seem to want to change...
And I'm the evil one. God sends angels in all shapes and sizes, I could have been his, but the devil had his hands over some peoples' eyes and no one saw that. But I know there is truth to that, considering others see that.
Nonetheless, I have learned so much from this, and I thank God for it.
I would never wish my worst enemy to go through what I did, and I pray his next one is the one for him. And that they are happy.

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Fable

Yeah the title its based off the XBox 360 game but it along with bicycle riding are a few things Beau and I are doing together. Even though we had our fall out, we are striving to make things work, and they are!
Our new kitten helps things along, too .
And I have to say I am excited to hear from Amanda again. God I miss being home...

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